today my women & identity prof emailed me to say that she’s really exciting about reading my paper about ecofeminism! it is just a little victory but i am going to celebrate it. ecofeminism is wonderful, it is definining the third-wave. lots of little things have made marks on our generation, like riot grrls and cybercommunities but ecofeminism is it. the political, the personal, the environment!
also, my new mini-interview with alison pick is going up on www.foundinthemargins.com so everyone in the universe needs to check it out!
everything is great*.
*even globalwarming is more friend than foe today because outside it is wonderfully sunny and mild. in the greater scheme of things i recognize this is terrible, but just for a little while when i was walking home with no coat, mittens or hat it felt almost okay**.
**i will burn in ecofeminist hell for my previous sentiments.
all of a sudden things started piling (piling themselves into little piles) and even though i felt very ontop of things i am not.
there is a barrage of midterms and papers and ideas to be researched.
and i am spending my first weekend back at home since christmas, also since my parents have reconciled. the problem with my family unit is that we work in little spurts and groups, we work better with each other on an individual basis and i’m worried that my very presence is going to cause everything to go to shit. it’s delicate and i am not so patient or trusting anymore.
simple, healthful, and close to nature.
organic experiences. the ones that are about mouths and hands-on-hands and taking things apart slowly and purposefully.
i am hopeful that things like this are making me a bigger and brighter person, leading me carefully toward inevitable, the conclusions that will resemble something like resolution or the answer.
i’m not sure what i’m trying to say. but i’m painfully aware of each of the things i can’t and shouldn’t say.
i am living comfortably, but almost entirely inside of my own head.
read this and revel in how ecologically sound and socially-aware our planet is!
http://www.theaustralian.news.com.au/story/0,20867,21036489-5006789,00.html
the destruction of the eco-system is the coolest.
everyone is stupid. everyone is an irritating mess!
“i didn’t mean to slight you in any way over the last while.”
translation: sorry i made you feel like an idiot when you were honest about how you felt, do you maybe want to sleep with me anyway?
i am frustrated and tired and increasingly aware of my own pathetic persistance. some things are not good enough anymore! and they won’t be! i am tired of chasing and chasing after people who feign an interest in me. i am interesting enough to be chased for at least a little while. i am in fact interesting enough to escape silly games (even the ones i perpetuate).
on the upside the lead singer of the minatures has some really good solo stuff and the jane bond isn’t such a hipster trap after all.
there are two words that can right almost any wrong, and make the tiniest and most insignificant problems vanish (like poof!) right before our eyes!
snow. day.
snow days habitually reappear on the days we need them the most. like maybe you got a little tispy last night. and woke up at 7am to finish your readings before a really long day of classes and tutorials. but instead you are greated with the shrieks of happy roommates! snow days freeze up all the deadlines and responsibilities for an entire 24 hours and no other single thing could make my heart sing so wholly!
i get to spend the day making mental notes and lists about possible trip dates! things i’ll need to bring! looking longing at hiking packs on the web! there is no better way to spend one day that is entirely yours.
i hope everyone is having such a wonderful day, even if its not a snowy one.
in may i am going to peru to go backpacking with my best friend.
we are going to eat as many carbohydrates as we can and sleep in hostels and lay on the beach for a month. we are going to drink and swim and sing together! we will finally travel together after so many years of promising each other bigger things.
this is called: making really good decisions.
my best friend right now is a spider who sleeps in the upper-corner of my bookcase at night, all curled up with his legs tucked underneath him. he is actually sort of cute, especially when you remember that his habitat is nooks & crannies and about how he is good for eating other bugs and keeping the balance of things!
i love weekends!
two nights in a row i read tom wolfe in my jammers and fell asleep really early. and now it is sunday! a day to eat bagels and blog in cafes, see movies and read for political thought.
there was a point, two weeks ago(?) when i thought this might be the worst semester ever. when i dreaded january and felt sad every night and ate pizza and cried regularly. but i was wrong. it turns out i have wonderfully engaging classes and even better friends.
thank you everyone! you are inspiring my january and the rest of my entire life, too.
one hundred entries, blog! and almost one year together.
it is a rainy friday evening and being home alone is a godsend.
sometimes it is nice to drink beer and engage in jollyness with people you love! but mostly it is nice to be home alone on friday night doing laundry, eating oatmeal, reading in bed. lonely fridays are perfectly predictable and a little celebration of self.
today, on our walk home, we talked about who we are and were and are becoming once more and it was interesting and enlightening. lately i am catching myself in moments, knowing that things are exactly as they should be. not only is everything in its right place but, just for a short while, so am i and everything is aligned and well. last night catching up with old friends, and one in particular, she told me i seemed older and calmer and i felt it, too.
these days i am feeling safe and at home in my skin and it is a welcomed relief.
at last.
